Missing you heaps...

Events that occur in your life can hit you and wake you up to realize that you aren’t as independent as you think you are. That event occurred today. Cal left for an 8 day holiday today to Singapore and left an empty hole in my heart.

It should be an interesting 3 weeks coming up with up with and without Cal by my side.
Cal leaving for Singapore for 8 days. It’ll be the longest time we were separated since we got together.
Will be starting “my career” as a graduate process engineer with Transfield Worley on Monday. Excited but I’m sure I’ll be nervous on the day.
Cal’s parents will be coming over. Don’t know how they will react. Must be in my best behaviour. *sweats
Graduation. Already knew I will graduate even before my exams, but this will be once in a life time experience that should be cherished and remembered.
Half year anniversary. Should be a special moment. I shall see what I should plan for the day/night ;)
Cal starting “her career” as a graduate process engineer. It’s not what she wanted but it’s a beginning to a long career in the industry; and I’m sure she will get what she wants soon.

Some of these events I will have to handle by myself. But I’ll know that I’ll have the loving support from my family and especially from Cal when I need it, even though she is in Singapore.

She has been such a huge part of my life and once she left, my life stalled. Nearly every decision I have made in the past 3-4 months has her input in it. Whether it is what we do and where we go each day, buying groceries and financial decisions; we make decisions based on what the other thinks. We did everything together even before we moved in together. I already miss her the instant she disappeared from my sight…

Miss the way you smile at me. Miss the way you act “siao”. Miss the way you hit me when I act “siao”. Miss the way you are always close to me. Miss the way you look stoned in the car. Miss waking up next to you every morning. Miss going to sleep with you. Miss brushing my teeth with you. Miss eating with you. Miss the smell of you. Miss the way you just dance randomly. Miss the way you sneeze. Miss how your loose hair accumulates around the apartment. Miss the way you take care of me. Miss the way you hug me. Miss the way you kiss me. Finally…but most of all…I miss you.

Luv you baby…xoxoxox...